The house is quiet, and I am listening to the dryer
thinking about the towels, the whites and the other pile
of darks that need to get done
The bed is unmade, because fresh sheets are waiting to be put on
2 year old is finally in his room quietly playing cars and watching a movie
baby is sleeping, as he has been ALL day
which means a long night for me again
he will need to eat soon
Husband is gone, won't be home for a few more hours
exhausted tears slowly run down my face
because today I feel inadequate of being a mom
tomorrow I will go into work for 8 hours
have plenty to get done there
some groceries are still on the counter
waiting to be put away
the vacumme is out, waiting to be used
but here I sit on the computer
Lack of sleep is really taking it's toll on me
I can feel it everywhere inside of me
I don't want to be awnry, or short, but it's hard
I don't remember it being this hard
I love my boys, I love them SO much
I am so thankful they are both healthy and strong
but days like today I just want to sit on my bed
watchign FRIENDS re-runs and eating some kind of
fatty, chocolatey food....
I know it's just one day, and tomorrow will bring
new things, but today, is a day where I feel inadequate...
3 comments:
Hang in there. I hope you get some sleep!
We all have days like that. I still do even though Maddy is almost 18 months and sleeps through the night. Being a mom is the hardest job ever. You are a great mom. So let the vacuum sit, let the laundry pile up. Eat something chocolatey and watch Friends.
Tomorrow is a new day.
Don't stress about it. If the Sheets don't get back on the bed until bedtime, so what. I love turning on a movie and folding clothes. Or set your timer for 20 min and clean, clean, clean. When it goes off, stop what you're doing and relax. It's pretty surprising how much can get done.
Just remember, you're not alone, just emotional. You just had a baby and no one blames you for taking it easy.
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