My Karson Maddux......1st grade.....beginnings

 This picture was taken when Karson was 3. Now he is 6! Where has the time gone? I can't believe I will have a child in school all day long. I lay in my bed at night, thinking of him, worrying for him, praying for him, being excited for him. Will he make friends easily? Will he sit by someone at lunch? Will he eat his lunch? Will he like his teacher? Will he feel comfortable? Will he adjust well to the schedule? So many questions.

 Being a mom is truly one of my greatest blessings. Am I perfect at it? Nope. Not one bit. But I sure do love my kids unconditionally. Karson is full of life and energy and sometimes that can get exhausting for a mom. But in the next moment, he is snuggling by me on the bed watching a show, or telling me about dinosaurs, or asking me questions, and I cherish those moments. I cherish the moments of " Mom, will you sing to me tonight?" Because I know that won't last forever. I relish in the toys all over the living room, because he was playing " minecraft dinosaur" and using his imagination. I love how he leaves his shoes all over the house, because I do that too.

 Karson is a good soul, whenever he does something he knows is wrong, he instantly feels bad about it, not a day later, or an hour later, like a second later. He regrets his choices and what he did, and wants to make it better. Although Hudson drives him crazy, never once have I heard Karson tell Hudson he can't play with Karson or his friends, he loves to have sleepovers with Hudson in the family room and he loves to teach and tell Hudson about things.

 This little baby of mine was sent down to me at a time when I needed him most. He was a healing tool for me as well as a lovely addition to my family. I would bring him to work with me and he would just sit contently in his pack n play and play for hours, and take naps in my office. He knew what his mama needed and he was it.

 Karson, I am so thankful for you. For the boy that you are and the man you will become. Thank you for loving me even with all of my imperfections! First grade here we come!

Happy 3rd Birthday Hudson Ty!

 Phew! This 3rd Birthday was a rough one! This poor kid was So sick the week of his birthday. 104 degree fevers for 5 days, wouldn't eat or drink for 4 days, double ear infections, tonsillitis, and lots of sleepless nights! Luckily the next week each day he got a little better, and a little better. We had a Monster Inc Party. He wasn't sure about all of the attention and got embarrassed when we all sang Happy Birthday to him, but he loved all his nice gifts, and the yummy treats.

 Hudson has a mind of his own. He gets mad when clothes are too big, or fit him wrong, and if they are the wrong color for that day. He wants to sit in a certain chair, use a certain spoon and bowl. His shoes have to be tied a certain way, and things lined up how he wants. It's different for me, because Karson was never this way, which just proves all of our kids are very different! :)

 He is also very sweet and loves to sing and cuddle his mom. He tells me " I love you baby" probably every day, and my life would just not be complete without him.

 Happy Birthday babe!

The life of a mom....

Yesterday started out crazy to begin with, Karson woke up at 5 am because his leg was hurting him. I went and laid down by him and rubbed his leg and sang songs to him. Hudson woke up at 6, went and laid by him to get him back to sleep and Karson was back up at 7. 

I went to switch the laundry and realized the laundry room stunk like gasoline, I had a long skirt on the night before and I got gas, the gas from the ground got onto my dress. I forgot to wash it that night. Awesome. I had a whole batch of clothes in the washer and they all smelled like gasoline.  I washed them, then washed them again. 

I got the kids situated watching cartoons and playing trains, as soon as I say I am going to hop in the shower, all hell breaks loose. Mom, I need this, mom Hudson took this, mom Karson did this, pounding on the bathroom door. Ah, so relaxing. 

Go to work, pick them up. Both are whiny and tired from lack of sleep the night before. I was making two batches of oreo truffles, and two batches of sugar cookie bars for a wedding. I was paid, which was great, but I don't think enough. It took me 5 hours to get all of this done, with whiny, crying, fighting children. And my kitchen is of course a mess so now I am going to have to go home, sweep, mom, wipe everything down which will take another hour I am sure. 

Yes Tyler got home around 6:00, and tried to help, but do you think they want Dad to bathe them? Nope, mom. Can Dad put them to bed? Nope. Mom.  So then it just stresses Tyler out, because he knows I am stressed and it is a vicious cycle. Hudson decided not to go to bed until 11:30 last night, and I may or may not have had a mini break down.

I finally came into the bedroom, literally pulled the covers over my head, and told Tyler, I can't do this anymore tonight. I don't care if screams or cries, you need to lay by him. Luckily Tyler was able to get him to sleep, so around midnight with an aching back and very sore feet I finally fell asleep. 

I love my kids so much, and they make me so happy, but days like yesterday it is so damn hard sometimes being a MOM! Tyler has meetings until 8 pm tonight, so I guess today after work, we will go to the library, get frozen yogurt and go home and crash, and hopefully have  a good night! 

2014 goals

 So I never really set "resolutions" if you will, but I do have a lot of goals I want to accomplish. One of them is blogging more, blogging isn't as big as it used to be, but it's still nice to have an online journal of life. I like looking back at the past years and remembering things that we did, and I posted it on here. So here we go.
1. Be a better blogger
2.Lose 20 pounds
3. Be better about family home evening
4. Organize the office/den
5. Try and savor all the little moments
6. Cook more and try new things
7. Have more patience
8. Give more service
9. Be a better wife
10. Remember to tell my kids how much I love them every day and make sure they know it.