So today ended up turning into a pretty good day, and here is why. For those of you who know me, you know how I have always struggled with my weight. My whole life it has been an up and down battle of maintaining a good and healthy weight. There has been good things come from this and bad things. In my first marriage I was diagnosed with polycystic ovarian syndrome as well as insulin resistance. Insulin resistance means that my body stores fat more than other people and has a hard time spreading out the insulin through out my body. PCOS is a condition where there are always cysts on my ovaries, when they burst or rupture it is quite painful and this also makes loosing weight difficult, for some reason my body just wants to hold on to my fat content. Lovely! So they gave me some medicine called Metformin, which immideatly started helping me to loose weight, and also the birth control yasmin works for me as well as a diet controller. While being pregnant you are not supposed to take metformin so you can see how this would affect my weight gain during pregnancy!
Before I got pregnant with Easton I worked REALLY hard in loosing weight, and I lost about 13 pounds, this took FOREVER to do because my body wanted to make things difficult. I would go to a WW meeting and leave bawling in the car because it had said I gained .4 of a pound, which is nothing but water weight, but I would get so obsessed with it, I would be devestated. I could tell my body looked better, but those numbers would stay inside of my mind and consume my thoughts. Thus where the obession begins of laying in bed at night, analyzing how many calories I burned at the gym and what I had eaten that day.
I love food. I love desserts, and I love to cook. I gave up food before and I never will again. It wasn't worth it, giving up food just brought so many more problems to my life. I eat a lot of veggies and fruit, I eat wheat bread, so I always thought I was a healthy eater to begin with, but Weight Watchers just made me more aware of what I was eating on a daily basis.
So when I got pregnant this time around, I had not lost all of my weight yet from the prior pregnancy. As soon as I could go after Easton I was back at the gym working out like a maniac sweating bulletts, again slow process. I was very happy that I got pregnant again so quickly though. The only problem was the weight.
Well my last Dr. appointment I went to three weeks ago, my Dr. wasn't too happy with the weight I had gained, and put me on a strict diet and told me she wanted me to try and not gain anything in the next 3 weeks. Well of course as soon as I got out of the Dr.'s office I was bawling. It seems it always comes down to weight for me. So I promised myself that I would work really hard and try to eat what she told me. Obviously this was hard for me because the second week of this was my birthday week, so I tired to keep everything as healthy as I could. It was really hard some days because I would go to bed and my stomach would be aching for food, but I wouldn't eat. I know you are probably thinking that isn't wise to do while being pregnant, but the Dr. said the baby would be fine and he would take all the nutrients that he needed from me.
Today I had another Dr.'s appointment and when they went to weigh me I had lost 4 pounds! Ha! I was so happy to hear that, and my Dr. was very happy and proud of me too. She asked me what I had been doing and I just said following the diet guidelines, she asked me if I cut out all sugars and I said no, I still eat treats just not every day. So it was a Happy Day for me at the Dr.'s office today! I felt much better than I did last time. The baby is doing great, his heart beat is strong and his body is placed just how it should be inside of me. I know I will gain weight, ecspecially water retention these last two months of my pregnancy but it makes me happy to know that I am being as healthy as I can be and that my baby is getting all of the nutrients that he needs!
So to end this post, not to sound too cheesy or anything I just wanted to say THANK YOU to Tyler, never once has he made me feel fat or ugly while being pregnant, and I really do appreciate that, as I think about it all of the time in my mind. I know he loves me for me and thinks I am pretty no matter what and that is a gift that he gives to me, that keeps on giving. Thanks honey. Love you.
4 comments:
That is great to hear that your little baby boy is doing so good! I can't believe you only have 2 months left! And congrats on the disipline of your new diet. And yes Tyler is a great husband to you!
That is great! I am so proud of you. These last 2 months will go by fast and then it will all be worth it.
That is great! That must have been so hard! I don't think I have that kind of will power!
Breann. I suffer from PCOS too and I hate the whole weight issues. It is hard becuase its not something you can just tell people. Thats great that you did good and lost weight. I have been working hard th epast yea rnad dropped almost 50 pounds. it has been a lot of work though so I know how you feel. I'd love to find out more about yoru PCOS and treatment stuff. I have had so many issues with it.
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