So I am officially back to work. I have had different emotions about coming back and I don't really know what to think of them all. On one hand it is nice to be in the adult world for awhile and help people solve thier problems and of course it is nice to be able to make money again. I know that I am also very lucky because I have two family members, my mom and Tylers mom to watch Karson on Mondays and Wedensdays and then I get to bring him into work with me on the other day I work. We are going to set up a play yard in my office tonight for him. I will take some pictures of it and post later. I know a lot of people don't have the luxury of only working 3 days a week and of being able to bring thier baby into work with them. Thanks Dad!
Monday I didn't get home from work until almost 7:00 because after work I went to the grocery store and to get gas and to subway to get dinner. I was exhausted from what seemed like the longest day ever, then I saw Karson and as soon as he heard my voice he turned his head and looked at me, it is amazing that already he knows who I am. I started crying when I picked him up and just hugged him for a long time. It is amazing the love I feel for him. I think once I get used to this routine I will feel better and all will be well with the world! :)
He is starting to smile and I can never get my camera fast enough to catch him at it, the little stinker, but it is so fun watching his facial expressions and watching his growing personality.
I went to the gym for the first time yesterday since I had Karson and it felt GOOD. I am excited to start implementing this back into my life again. I am going to go again tonight although after having only about 4 hours of sleep last night and being at work all day, I know I will not want to, but I have to be consistent to see results! Now that I am not pregnant everywhere I look has cute clothes! I want to buy, buy, buy, but I know I can't. I need to wait and be patient and fit into the clothes I have NOW and then I can buy some new pants and skirts. Shirts I can buy now, and I have bought a couple $9.99 Target special shirts since he was born. I just need to feel cute and fun gain you know?
YES I am reading Breaking Dawn, I am going to have to read it again after I am finished, but I just want to know what happens. I will always feel that Twilight is the best one out of the series, but after I read each of them a couple of times, they grow on me. I am not reading it as fast as I would like, but I have other cute little things that keep me busy, besides worrying about finishing a book.
It is an interesting thing when you have a child of your very own, things that used to matter to me before don't really. I have never been one to really care what people think...too much,I mean I think on some level we all care what others think of us, but now that I have Karson, and Tyler and Kaili I REALLY don't care what people think about me or my family as much, I feel so much closer to Tyler since we have shared in this experience and my main focus is in that knowledge.
On a side note I am excited for fall, I love summer time, but it doesn't seem I did much fun SUMMER stuff this summer and I am looking forward to fall, I hope it cools down by the end of September but since it was cold in June, I am not crossing my fingers yet...
Any way and those are my Tuesday thoughts!
1 comment:
I am really impressed you are already at the gym. I hope that I can be so good. It is so nice to have family around to help you, I have to say that is something i really miss, and never appreciated fully until it was gone. Good work! I think you are doing awesome, work and gym and baby- I am impressed!
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