Someone recently said to me that they felt like I have a " negative attitude towards life in general" and that I have changed as a person. This has really bothered me since I received this interesting statement, and it made me start to think.
I feel like if anything my attitude towards life has improved over the past ten years. I have been happier than I have ever been. Sure there are times when I am sad, or distraught or worried, but who isn't like that sometimes? We all have our journey that we travel through in this life, sometimes the road is VERY hard and sometimes it is easy peezy lemon squeezy, as Kaili would put it.
I battled severe depression and eating disorders all through High School, I struggled through a divorce at 23 and I lost my first baby at 25 through a very traumatic experience. Sometimes those experiences are still raw and hurtful, but other times I can get through my thoughts of sadness when I think about those things. I have changed as a person, but for the better.
I could be negative, I could be bitter at the world for forcing me to deal with these sad, and discouraging things. But I am not. I have grown from them, I have grown closer to the people who truly love me, know who I am, and care about me. I haven't pushed them away, I have brought them in closer.
It's weird for me to think that my 10 year High School reunion is this year. In 10 years I have learned so much about what makes me who I am. I LOVE my life. I love where life has brought me. It's not always easy, it's not always perfect, but it's my life and I won't take it for granted.
So I am sorry that " they " feel this way, but really I just can't care anymore, because I am happy, I am blessed and I wouldn't want to be anywhere else, than where I am at right now in my life.
4 comments:
I've thought the opposite of you. I have always thought you had a great attitude. It's weird how we both got a divorce at exactly the same age. Crazy.
I think many people would let the hard times break them and I think you have shown strength and positivity ... so there! whoever said that.
that surprises me...i have never thought of you as a negative person. i look up to you....for all you have been through and for being so positive through it all. i think you have extreme faith and are a strong woman....and all these experiences have made you who you are today. love ya!
It really amazes me what people say.
I think you have the right attitude. You're happy and you have come a long way through a lot of heart ache. Good for you, for not letting her(him) get ya down!
You are not a negative person, BreeAnn. Whoever said that obviously doesn't know you. Makes me want to punch whoever said that--hee, hee! Love you!
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