Happy 4 year Anniversary to Us!

March 11, 2006 was a cold and snowy day! I wasn't getting married until 3:00 because we had to plan our wedding in pretty much 2 weeks, and that is the best time that I could get. I barely slept the night before and I was so excited, anxious, emotional, happy and all kinds of other emotions! I had finally made it, I finally got what I deserved, and what I had been looking for, for so long, it just happened to take awhile to find me. My heart was truly happy and I had no doubts about marrying Tyler. Our relationship was a different, fast, emotional and turbulent one. Both of us being married before, having had different experiences, has sometimes made our marriage harder and sometimes easier.

Tyler and I are very different people, we have different ways of handling things, opposite opinions about things, we argue, we disagree. But we also laugh, and learn from each other, we are best friends, we are partners, we even out each other's strengths and each other's weaknesses. No matter what I know I can depend on him for anything and everything that I need. And if I am ever upset at him all I need to do is pull out my wedding pictures and look at them, because I was shining pure happiness that day.

Life is hard sometimes, it is stressful, painful and sad, when I am dealing with the tougher times in life, it's nice to know I have Tyler alongside me to help me through it all. And when we are relishing in the good times life brings, memories, laughter, watching our kids grow, it makes me feel so content and secure that I have this wonderful man standing by my side. Our love is constant. No matter the argument, no matter the issue at hand,I know that our love will fight through it.

March 11, 2010. Now it is four years later and here we are, still strong, still holding onto one another, still happily married. I love Tyler so very much. When I have a quiet moment to myself I sit and think about how crazy it is that we actually did end up together. Tyler Fankhauser the missionary in Argentina....

You were my missionary long before I ever knew
It was mapped out just for me
And I was so lucky to have it be you.
It took me awhile to figure that out, but I am so very glad I did.
The day I wrote you that first letter, I had nothing to lose. I wanted you to get to know the real me, because for so long no one really had.
It was easy to write you as we had never met before.
I sent your letter off feeling happy in my heart.
Secretly I couldn't’t wait to hear back from you and when I got your letter I knew I had found you,
The person I had been looking for all my life
I was so scared as we had lived different lives.
You were an angel sent to me and I wasn’t sure if I deserved you.
I realized I missed you.
I missed you every day
How could I miss you if I had never even met you?
But I did.
I bought you cards and sent you treats
I thought about you all the time.
I wondered how it would feel to lay in your arms and feel safe.
Safe from the pain I had felt for so long,
Safe from the heartache that haunted me at night.
You were the light to the end of the tunnel that I needed so very much.
I had your pictures all over my room
I looked at you each day.
Your eyes are what interested me the most,

and I wondered what it would be like

when I could look at them in person.
You floated in my dreams and in the poems I wrote.
You were my sunshine on my cloudy rainy days.
The first time that I talked to you on the phone and heard your soft sweet voice
I wanted you to come home that next day,
I didn’t want to lose you, because I feared that I would.
My letters became longer, because I had so much to say
I loved your letters you wrote back to me

and each night I would say a prayer for you.
I made you tapes and sang you songs
You were my missionary and you always will be
I felt your love from miles away
And thankfully I have it today
You were an example, a healer of my faith
I love you more than words can say
So even though it took us awhile to find our way back to each other
The first day I saw you ,and looked in your eyes again
when I felt your arms around me
I saw my missionary

and this time I wasn’t going to let him get too far away from me.

Happy Anniversary Tyler! I truly do love you more than you will ever know!