A year ago today my world stopped
Frozen in time and the only motion I felt
Were the tears that fell from my face
never ending
Wrapped in blankets of blue
eyes closed and at peace
We held him
But he had returend home

A year ago today
my heart broke
my hands were heavy
and empty
Nothing could have stopped what happened that day
It came so fast so unpredictable

Slowly the hurt melts away and turns into something else
a memory of pain
It is still there but not as strong
We miss him and love him
and know he is watching over us

He was our first child together
our first son
every day we have a thought of him
and he lives inside our hearts

A year ago today
I was living in a nightmare
that I never thought I would have to face
Our little Angel who we met for just a moment
Came to say hello and then left to move on to other things

We love you Easton.
Forver,
Mom and Dad

So I wasn't sure how I would feel today, and I am doing ok. If I think about anything pertaining to Easton, my eyes fill with tears and I start to cry, which is what I thought would happen. I am keeping busy taking care of our other little guy, so I know that has helped. I can't believe everything that has happened this past year, it has been a crazy time, but we have also been very blessed. When I think about last year and everything that happened, I really am surprised how I adjusted to it all. I can't help but wonder what Easton would have looked like as a one year old and that is where it gets hard and sad. I know I will see that side one day, but for now I am left to wonder about it. We are going up to his grave tonight, so that will be good. Any way I knew today would be hard, but I also feel a calm feeling of peace, and for that I am truly grateful.